Bah Humbug
by Zachary Lessig

im sitting here rapping
when i should be grappling the holiday cheer
nobody should be starving this time of year
no money comes near, all i got is fear
no mistletoe for a worthless kiss
i say merry christmas, but what the fuck is this
happy thanksgiving, reality is chilling
the lord is naught but a peasent for the present
the weather gets colder, snow piling on my shoulders
no family willing to stand aside me
where the friends on the days you go hungry?
just makes me wanna’ bungee with no cord
its the holiday spirit i cant afford
i cant just live on my own accord
just got stuck winding some chords
put away the lights, burn down the tree
ain’t no cheer for the likes of me
you say im being emo?
you say that theres more?
look at my house, an empty wooden floor
my every single breath is all that im thankful for
the last one i took was dank, full of more than i could hope
but im a dolt, just realizing that im going down a slope

still sitting here
with thoughts so lucid in my mind
my hopes and dreams were one of a kind
like a snowflake you can never find
like a sunrise that never shined
from within, i realize i cant live without
a single regret or doubt
it all makes me yearn to shout
i look at my keyboard, all i write is shit
we all know i won’t get better taking another hit
i shouldnt even bother with it
going on and on about my newfound “bah humbug” persona
i just want to crack a holiday corona
its all that ive got
if i cant even get that
all i’d have left is some beans and water from a tap
fuck christmas, im straight up pissed
im not the goodlist; not on the bad
santa didnt even remember my name
and this thanksgiving, i sit in shame
theres no turkey on the table, this shit’s lame
im still not able, to exist on this plain
happy damned holidays
im gonna go get fucked up in a thousand ways
things will get better one of these days